Embracing Chronic Kidney Disease
Last updated: April 2023
When I was in my teens, I honestly couldn’t care less about my health for context I am now 23. I was young, dumb (some people might say I'm still young and dumb) but I also had a single left kidney that had chronic kidney disease (CKD). Although I had CKD, I still thought I was invincible during my teens. My kidney function was slowly decreasing between ages 15-20 and I still didn't care.
I was avoiding my reality like people avoid standing on a piece of lego. They know when they do it... it’s really going to hurt.
Soon enough, stage 4 CKD came along when I turned 20/21. I was thrown off a cliff into a whole new world of potassium, phosphorus, blood tests, appointments, medication, new doctors, stricter diet, gout, sadness, confusion and so much more.
I quickly came to the realization that if I don't acknowledge this annoying kidney issue I'm going to keep butting heads with my reality. Or, I could finally change my perspective by owning this disease, embracing it, acknowledging the impact it has on my life and work with it rather than against it.
Facing my reality
When I say my mental state has never been happier or clearer. The day I decided to embrace my world of kidney disease... changed me. Sounds dramatic, I know but hear me out. There are honestly days where I am grateful that I was diagnosed with CKD. I know it sounds like a stretch, but CKD has pushed me into a healthier lifestyle. I make better decisions for my health and well being. I believe in myself more and I am always aiming to do better for my health.
Everything changed. Not just my mindset, but I changed my entire life. What I ate, what I drank. Who I was hanging out with. Less of the bad stuff and more of the good. I was feeling great because of it.
Living with CKD is just a completely new game that I am playing. Now that I have FULLY embraced my reality of living with CKD, there are days I'm still terrified of what's to come and how quickly and dramatically my life could change overnight. But I know it's just something I'm going to have to deal with when it comes.
Luckily, I had a massive realization in my life that everyone has their own battle. CKD is unique to me but there are other people out there with their own battles that I also have no idea about and I bet they can feel it just hard as someone with CKD does some days. But in the end we are all here to keep fighting.
Do you have chronic kidney disease without any symptoms?