How Important Is Routine To You?

Keeping a routine is the most important thing in my life. I am so unorganized that it is driving me crazy. Imagine setting plans and it goes haywire and uncontrollably not the way you plan. That what having children is like. It is beautiful experience but nothing is routine because something always happens.

Before kids with my CKD, I would take a two hour nap everyday and it also helped my lupus. I also slept all night as well. I do not even take a nap at all now that I am a parent of two. I am so set in a routine sometimes I think something could be wrong with me.

When others cancel plans

Since having both lupus and CKD, I have became very impatient and that causes me to have the most nonchalant attitude, and I could be a bit snappy. I do not like making plans and people fall through because now I have to change my plans and my routine because they chose to cancel.

Maybe I wanted to not really come and just because someone said they missed me then I got out the bed and got ready and drove there just to be cancelled on. I have also been ghosted like that and lucky my husband came with me because I ended up not feeling alone.

My body needs a routine

If I have a doctor appointment I like being there 15 minutes early. I believe the early bird gets the word. My husband can be the total opposite at times. We would be five to ten minutes late if he has his way. He is the type I would have tell him a hour earlier from the actual time to be on time. But it stresses me out because I would have my routine set for that day.

Friendships and family can think you're being overwhelming and that you want everything done on your time but the truth is that your body is just on a set schedule. I am getting back to work and now I am doing a 180 with my routine as well because being a stay at home mother for the past three years and have not worked really for the past eight, I am flaring myself up already stressing about it.

How I have kept a routine

Something I do to help relieve my routine anxiety is keeping a calendar board so I can feel organized. Set time and reminders on my phone. Make a checklist daily or the night before so I can be prepped helps a lot. I never thought that I could go out of my routine until I had kids Now my routine is all over the place and I am unorganized and unfocused.

Sometimes I do not even remember what day it actually is. It could be a Saturday and I think it's a Friday for most of the day. So routine is important to me because the memory can be nonexistent sometimes to where I have to write reminders to myself and make sure I am doing everything I needed to do for that day. I just want to get through the day most times. Has anyone else felt this way?